Hi, I'm Sarina.

I've never really known how to answer the question, "So... what do you do?"

The short answer changes every few years. I've been a model, a singer, a songwriter, a recording artist, an A&R, a creative strategist, a business owner, and, for a long stretch, a woman trying to build a life from scratch in a country that wasn't home. But none of those titles really explain who I am. This blog is where I leave them at the door.

My story started in the Netherlands. At thirteen, I was modeling for clothing catalogs while trying to survive high school. By fifteen, I was performing in a girl group, balancing rehearsals, school, recording sessions, and major imposter vibes, you know, everything that comes with growing up in front of other people. From the outside, I'm sure it looked exciting. Inside, I was just a kid trying to figure out who I was, often feeling scared of not being able to connect with kids my age.

Music became a steady companion in my life. It inspired me to make one of the biggest decisions I've ever faced: leaving home to pursue a dream without a clear roadmap. I wandered through Europe, performing on the streets to save enough money to continue my journey. Eventually, I packed up all my belongings into a few suitcases and moved to the United States, where I eventually got the opportunity to sign with a production company in Atlanta.

I didn't know a soul. I had no safety net. Just a stubborn belief that maybe, if I worked hard enough, I could build the life I imagined.

Since then, life has been anything but linear. I've written hundreds of songs, performed on festival stages, and watched my work end up in films, television, games, and commercials. I've worked behind the scenes with artists, producers, labels, and brands, built businesses, and started over more times than I can count. Some dreams happened exactly the way I pictured them. Most didn't.

Ironically, the moments that shaped me most rarely happened on stage. They happened in tiny apartments where I questioned everything, through heartbreaks that forced me to rebuild my identity, through financial setbacks and friendships ending and career pivots, through therapy and panic attacks and slowly learning how to be alone. I learned to trust myself. I learned that success doesn't automatically make you happy. And I learned that sometimes the biggest breakthroughs only arrive after the life you planned completely falls apart.

If you've found me because of music, welcome. If you're curious about physical and/or mental health, welcome. And if you're here because you're trying to rebuild your own life, you're especially welcome. Those are all parts of my story. None of them are the whole story.

This isn't a Health blog. It isn't a music blog. It isn't a self-help blog. It's simply my life, written honestly.

Some posts will make you laugh. Some will make me uncomfortable to publish. Some dive into the music industry, the beautiful parts and the parts nobody talks about. Others are about faith, because somewhere along the way I started asking questions I never thought I'd ask and slowly found my way back to God. Some are about health, body image, and everything that came with it. And some days, it'll just be me writing about whatever life is teaching me that week.

One thing you'll notice pretty quickly: I don't have everything figured out.

I don't write because I have the answers. I write because I've spent most of my life searching for them. If something I've lived through helps someone else feel a little less alone, then every difficult chapter suddenly becomes worth something.

A quick note

Whenever I write about health, peptides, supplements, or anything medical, I'm sharing my personal experience, not giving medical advice. Everyone's body is different, and my story shouldn't replace professional guidance. There's a Disclaimer page that explains exactly how I approach these topics, because I believe honesty also comes with responsibility.

However you ended up here, through a song, a video, a random Google search, social media, or plain curiosity, I'm genuinely glad you found this little corner of the internet.

Pull up a chair. Read whatever speaks to you. Stay as long as you'd like. And if these stories resonate, I'd love for you to come back.

We're all trying to figure life out. This is simply where I write about mine.

~ Sarina